::: Saturday, December 31, 2005 @ 11:52 p.m. :::
omg...I'm gonna have an end to a start....
i'm not saying i'm not blogging anymore.
I'll still blog but might be checking other alternatives whether i shld move to diaryland or sth...read pitas promoting diaryland with lots of goodies...hahaha...
anyway....lots of things happened in 2005. Good and bad...all coming to an end with the end of 2005.
Hopefully this coming NEW 2006 YEAR...i hope all good things will come my way....and also to my family members, relatives,friends(real and online) and working colleagues.
Really touched that most of my online frens(cathy,eileen,shabby,frosty and shu) still visits my site. Thanks for sticking with me....i'm touched and wished u all the best in everything....
I'm looking forward to a new YEAR!!!!hope u guys are too...I WANNA WISH FOR A BF!!!!
hahahahha...wrapped in ribbons...hahahah...
HAPPY HAPPY NEW 2006 YEAR!!!!
I LOVE U GUYS!!!!!!!!!!!!!
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::: Sunday, October 2, 2005 @ 11:48 p.m. :::
omg...i tot no one visits my blog thats y i kinda stopped blogging *blushes*
really thank the oldies that kept supporting me...i barely have the urge to come back here to blog if it wasn't for the oldies...thks gurls.How times flies and i think i kinda have nothing interesting to write.Let me see wat to update you guys out there
Work has been okie except the newbie who isn't in the same frequency with the whole office...its not 1 or 2 pple!!!!but the whole OFFICE!!!!weirdo...it mite be his attitude which is causing this newbie serious prob. Either he change his attitude or else he will always be sending negative vibes out to surrouding pple.
My relationship with my fellow colleauges are improving everyday!!!!so happy!!!WAY TO GO FUZZY!!!!hmm nearly called myself FROSTY...had to stop and think to realize FROSTY=frostedsnow.
I'm getting fatter too...whenever i pop over to my grandma's hse, i get comments on y i ain't going on diet...i shld be going for one to slim down...oh well...for this once...i'm tired of dieting...plainly saying...i'm LAZY!!!!LAZY MISS PIGGY!!!hahahahah....*evil laughter*
Quiet down and i realize how frens do drift apart when everyone started working...since i started work, i hardly meet up with my frens as i am always tired by the time i got off work and just hope to reach home asap to just laze on my bed. So afraid one day i'll just lose contact with my frens just like that...yes yes...i'm not making any effort actually in any part of my life...i just don't know y...mayb i'm really just plain old lazy....geesh...turning into an old hag already....*shudders* i'm thinking of eating sushi now...omg...me being fat and lazy...reminds me of GARFIELD!!! i shall now be garfield and go laze on my bed now...TO THE DREAMLAND!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
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::: Sunday, July 17, 2005 @ 09:35 p.m. :::
its been a long long time...while i have not been blogging...i am busy working my ass off at work that i have no time to online during wkdays...sometimes wkends are just spent doing things NOT involving the computer and hence ME not being blogging for nearly 2 mths...
i'm losing touch man...so scared one day i really dun find the need to blog anymore...anyway work really been crazy...my relationship with this colleague that i don't really like HAS ACTUALLY IMPROVED!!!actually i believe we're forced to rely on each other at work cos one of the impt gurl in our team got reshuffled out to another team and hence i got to struggle on my own...NOW i'm even more busier cos the person i have to report to have CHANGED!!! and boy...that new person doesn't know a sh*t abt what he has to do and I HAVE TO GUIDE AND INFORM HIM!!!!geesh....i'm actually having my work pile up higher each and everyday and i can't seem to clear my work. How i wish that things didn't change and i won't have to rely on my own....NOW i have to cover my own ass at work...else i'll get my ass fired cos that guy didn't spot the mistakes i made...i have to learn to make lesser mistakes each day and boy it ain't easy at all when things i do are always urgent and it has to be done in an hr time...geesh...talk abt stress...
Anyway luckily there's always some light in the darkness i am in...i get to know this gurl,even thou she's younger, we really have some things in common which i think it's really FATE that i get to know her and i'm really really feeling very happy that i got to know her, cos without her, mayb i would quit this co. long time ago...time with her in the co. really brightens up my day...i have a lunch buddy too...anyway things always will come to an end cos she's leaving soon to continue her studies(she's working as its her holidays).
Besides this...i kinda have a small crush on this guy at work too...he reminds me of my other guy friend and one thing is HE MAKES ME HAPPY!!!! sometimes when i'm really stressed, he'll come along and say/do somethings funny that makes me laugh. hahaha...i kinda look forward to work everyday with the thought of seeing him at work...hahaha i know i'm bad but THATS THE MOTIVATION!!!! else work is actually boring...we're just there to work to pass our time everyday...sometimes when i get really upset/stressed at work...i really wonder "WHAT AM I DOING HERE !!!SITTING HERE AND WORKING!!!!". Actually it all boils down to ONE THING!!!ONE BIG $$$$$....else no one will be willingly to work...everyone works so that they earn some $$$ to make their life better...how i wish things wld be different.
Wonder how all u guys are doing...sometimes i think abt u guys...miss ya guys,esp cathy,shabby,shu and frosty(oh well i think u gurls are the only ones visiting ma blog..thks..)Hope u guys are doing well...i'll be back again...soon...i hope...hahahahhaha...tata gurls...
hmmm i realize that frosty is doing well with her AHEEYAH website too...*two thumbs up*....way to go gurl...proud of u...
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::: Saturday, May 7, 2005 @ 10:22 p.m. :::
i felt loved...thks cathy for willing to host my images :) really thankful for that but i don't tink i'll come up with a new layout so soon...when i come up with a new layout, i'll really need ur help. :D
These days...i realize that my colleagues at my workplace seems to be ignoring me. There's so many instances where i felt as if they are keeping me out of their "circle". Times when i tried joining into their conversation and the conversation will suddenly died down...talk/joke to pple and they won't answer/acknowledge...smile at them and recieves no reaction.Lunch would always be me eating at my work desk...the only time it suxs is lunchtime...other than tat..i try to bury myself in work to ignore the fact i dun have pple to really talk/gossip/joke to....these are the times i miss my friends very much...nowadays..there's this qn in my mind..shld i stay on or shld i go....wat did i do to have them ignoring me..i wonder if i did anything wrong. Shld i not get too invovled in work and spend some time walking arnd chatting with them??? Or am i an easy person to be bullied..to be pushed arnd...wat i done wrong to be on the receiving end of this kinda treatment.
I seek opinion and yet kinda got told off...saying that i am old enough to make decisions whether to stay on...how come out of a sudden, i felt my whole new found happiness slipping away through the gaps of my fingers...in turn, i'm feeling this heavy sadness...slowing seeping into my pores and into my bloodstream...heading straight for my heart...
suddenly, just one mth of working and i felt mentally drained...did i tell u i actually felt UTTERLY happy going to work?i never felt that b4...i actually love going to work....
i hope things will turn for the better in the next few wks...in the meantime, i'll cross my fingers...look out for another job while continuing working. WISH ME LUCK...i need luck for staying on...thks
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::: Friday, April 15, 2005 @ 11:51 p.m. :::
welcome to this plain blog of mine...its so broken down till the website that host my pics locked me out of my own account...serves me rite too...cos i just didn't fully use the account except to host pictures for my blog. SERVES ME RITE for doing that very BAD BAD thing...anyway...there goes my 7's layout...
Anyone out there has any idea where i cld load my images to and have my blog link to it? My brain is totally not doing me any favours...PLS!!!I NEED HELP!!!!
btw....i started work...dun think i will have any chance of blogging until wkend comes along and i laze in front of my comp. The rest of the days, i'm busy working the whole day and i am so tired till i dun have any strength left to laze in front of my comp...i only have the strength left to have my dinner, take my bath and off to my comfy bed for a gd nite rest and prepare for tml. The cycle just goes on like that....oh well...i have no choice...no work, no $$$$$, no $$$$, no NOTHING....anyway i feel happier just working....i feel alive...hahaha can't explain y but i'm happy most of the time....saw cute guys(I MEAN WORKING GUYS) on the street and i cld smile at myself the WHOLE WORKING day everytime i think abt it...that is how easily i get contended with my life...hahahah...i'm gonna start planning wat to do with my life from this time onwards...plan a healthy postive life...WAHAHAHHAAH...and hope to spread my happiness to ALL OF U OUT THERE!!!!all my dear ones...i LOVE U ALL!!!!
SO.....b4 any brilliant layout comes into my mind, pple, bare with the empty layout and the seldom updated blogs. btw, Inca !!!! if u still read my blog, cld u give me ur blog link???cos i seemed to have lost it or ur blog link just ain't working for me anymore.
i'll blog as much as i can k...but no promise...mayb when i get my first pay for this job, n i'll blog abt wat i do with that money....WAHAHAHHA*evil grin*
ps:frosty, sorry for taking away the talkative 3 link cos it always don't work for me...don't know y...mayb u cld send the codes to me again and i'll try it the next time i get another layout up on the blog. thks and love ya....
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::: Thursday, March 17, 2005 @ 11:13 p.m. :::
HEY PPLE!!!!i'm back again...i was laughing away at cathy's reply...geesh...i have to admit i blog less than u...hahaha...i'm trying hard to blog...just didn't know y but i suddenly didn't have to urge to blog much...mayb cos the talkative three ain't tat talkative anymore...hahaha
didn't hear from frosty for quite some time...miss her...miss shu too...thou i talked to her few days ago...i've been troubled about a decision i promised...what if i regretted...do u think i shld tell them that i regret with my decision...or shld i just try to find my courage out and just face it head on???cos i'm having second thoughts and wondering if its better to cancel the decision i made???i'm fickleminded...mind u all!!!hahaha....
These days been catching up with my friends and i really love being with them...its been a mth since i met any of my friends...my friends are asking if i have been actively searching for a bf!!!hahaha...i'm still holding on to tat guy i had my eyes on but i actually HAVE CRUSH on any guys i think is CUTE!!!!haiz...
Recently had a bad haircut..i hate it totally...trying to change that hairstyle.i can't go with a straight fringe...i look like a nerd. Had an unexpected makeover too thou the pics sux...i personally think i look more like a hooker. bleah...thou there's a cute guy i had my eyes on..hahaha that is a bonus to all the things that sux...he's a real nice guy. :D
Lately...i am also fickle minded with the things i am doing...suppose to self learn korean but kinda goes to a standstill...then wanted to learn tarot...also kinda went into a standstill...now wanna pick up watercolouring(painting)...geesh y can't i just focus on sth...i sure would wanna master tarot...mayb once i saved up, i'll take a course on it. hahaha...thats fickle me...fickle fuzzy...
OH taya's album seems to be out but not here yet...wanna hear it!!!!tony's album's not here too..thou i doubt it would arrive here...taya has higher possibility...where's hyukie man...i miss him!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
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::: Sunday, February 6, 2005 @ 06:11 p.m. :::
WOAH WOAH...first entry since the start of 2005...i know i know...i start to lag in writing of blog entries...it just seems life is going so bland for me that i don't have anything interesting or happy to blog abt.
These days ain't feeling all happy and stuff...i'm all shrouded by dark clouds looming over the top of my head...waiting to rain and start its thunder and lightning...not a gd omen for me...
These days i start to wonder wat i really want for life. I seemed to be the most useless person among my friends.haiz...thats real bad...a slave to my parents too...i have to do watever they tell me to do...even talking have to be answered the way that they want...bleah...my life seemed to be controlled by them. How sad is that...mayb i shld just waste this life away and mayb the next life...i won't wanna be anything...not even a spirit or animal or watever...just be the air...the earth...the sea...
Even love doesn't seemed to be coming my way...as usual...the person i had my eyes on seemed to be interested in another gurl...haiz...if he likes me...he would have find some way to tell me right???Cos at least he made a pt to tell the gurl or sth...mayb its abt time i stop thinking abt him...mayb i'm just a friend to him...mayb i shld just stay that way...a friend.
Anyway...i think i shld just focus on my work. Just get myself busy with something...but i'm always lazy to do anything. I'm all talk and nothing. I hate myself cos i made it happen this way. hahaha....how horrible and hideous i am...
I'm thinking of changing the layout...geesh i am starting to get tired of this layout already...it seemed to HEAVY...hahaha...thks pple for still popping by my HALF HIBERNATION blog...i'll find something HAPPY and INTERESTING to blog next time.
i promise.
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::: Thursday, December 30, 2004 @ 12:09 a.m. :::
As many pple out there have already known. Some countries in southeast asia had been hit very very badly by tsunamis caused by an earthquake near Sumatra.
I have to count my blessings too that we are one of the sheltered coutries where the countries that surround us was really hit badly(if it were to hit us, i think i won't be here blogging)...Everytime i watch the news or read up on reports on the internet, i see the death tolls climbing up...now its over 70,000 total. Every report you see, you see dead bodies lying all around...can you imagine so many pple died in just a few days??? Mother nature can't be underestimated. I was telling my parents that we always hear news stating in the future the earth will face an overpopulation??? I told them this is how mother nature took things in her hands. Within a few mins, few strong waves, so many pple died. My heart really goes out to those affected. Called some pple whom i know that has friends or families there. All are safe and sound...thk god. Luckily a few of my friends whom always like to go to those kinda small tourist island like phuket didn't plan any trips...else i would be so worried for them.
Its ironic that this just happened after christmas day. No one would expect anything tat bad to happen to them. Its kinda scary when u see those videos shot by tourist or pple living there...the waves, the flood, pple being swept away, pple clinging on the dear lives....
I did some searching when i saw this website on the news...i'll put it here in case any of u guys out there knew pple who are looking for their loved ones. This link is the Phuket International hospital link AND they have info on other phuket hospitals too
One thing good that i see from this tragedy is that the pple in those affected countries are helping out one another in ways they can. You can reallly see the unity, care and concern, helpfullness in them...no matter if they are the locals living there or the foreigners.
I really do hope and pray miracles do happen for many missing out there.Please help them biggie guy above...
Wikipedia fills us in on more geographical details and infos. More news and update can be found in these 2 blogs, WorldChanging AND The South-East Asia Earthquake and Tsunami(SEA-EAT)
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::: Sunday, December 26, 2004 @ 01:18 p.m. :::
merry merry xmas to everybody!!! hope u guys have a merry xmas.
i had mine yesterday and i made choc spoons for my relatives :D it took me 5 hrs to complete the spoons and it was 1/4 tiring...hahahha but the result of it was great...love the spoons and hearing that pple like my choc spoons is GREAT!!!hahaha it feels great when pple compliment things that u have made all by yourself!!!!
I had my pressies too...a pair of ear ring, photo album, handmade pendent, bracelet, potpurri+towel,india made bag and bangles and a top. ALL so LOVELY!!!
geesh...thats a great day to a wk of horrible work days...my hardware devices seems to stop working for me one after another...and i am on a rush to get things done!!!...omg...pple breathing down my neck. thats real bad. Anyway it temporary passed me....so i'm hopefully on the clear.
Last wk i bought a deck of tarot cards(Gilded Tarot) and i love it very much. The graphics are well drawm..i love the pictures inside. Haven't really play with the cards yet cos i wanna treat it right and i didn't really have the time to really learn how to do with the cards thou i have some basic ideas. Really wanna learn how to read with those cards.
Lately i don't know if i am stressed or wat but i have weird dreams and those dreams seems to be of another kind of dream cos the places all seems to belong to somewhere...hahah i'm not sure. haha....mayb i'm just stressed out but there's a day or two i jolted up from my bed due to bad dreams...*sweats*
Hope i will have better dreams....:D
New year is coming soon...start the countdown again...ahahah...a new year, a better life.
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::: Friday, December 10, 2004 @ 01:16 a.m. :::
okie dokie in for a quickie b4 i turn in for the nite.
I PASS MY DRIVING!!!!!!!!!WOO HOO!!!!! so i am now a licensed driver.hahahah....*WOO HOO* *shakes booty* *boogie woogie* i am really happy that i MADE IT!!!though the tester was very mean cos he was like telling me off with the mistakes i made and i realize i got the same tester that i had for the first driving test. THATS VERY UNLUCKY!!!!once i heard him talk, i knew i got the same tester...--!
to end my day, i actually slip and fell down the stairs at the driving centre...and my right foot sandel came flying off...hahaha...and ACTUALLY A HANDSOME GUY just stopped in his track and look at me when i picked myself up(and the shoe) and started walking off. SO EMBARRASSING!!!i think he either heard/saw me falling...he got the "are you okie" look on his face. i was too embarrass to look him straight in the face. (that happen yesterday, now my right butt and arm feels kinda sore, esp my arm..i can't put pressure on my arm...it seems weak...hahaha)
When i tell my friends i fell at the driving centre, they were saying "Why do you keep falling down stairs???" hahaha cos i think within these 2 years i fell quite a number of times...mostly due to the shoes i wear.
I msged my friends to let them know i pass my driving and all were msging back to congrat me!!!i'm so happy :D mayb i would feel even happier if i didn't fell down. ANYWAY i am actually feeling happy for now cos at least i don't need to worry abt having to stress on passing my driving. Now wat i have to do is to drive more to improve my driving skills. :)
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::: Tuesday, November 9, 2004 @ 12:44 a.m. :::
hey hey....i'm back again. Kept wanting to blog but my fingers aren't doing their job. Anyway i worked for a few days as facilitator to student tour and overall it was good thou there were some jitters. BUT OKIE!!!! it was fine :) brush up on my communication too...cos i got difficulties in me making pple understand wat i say SO everytime i have to find ways to rephrase my words...so if anyone were to meet me real life...pls pardon me when i stumble on my words...cos i'm a babo...ahahah....I didn't really go dig my shinhwa pics and vids still so bare with me while i think abt wat to do with those things(as to how to put it up here)
Anyway was checking out the websites that provides job listings and i found one VERI COOL job ad!!!! i think its looking for camp counselor for summer camps in USA!!!! USA man!!!! woohoo!!! get me so excited. I'm trying to contact this friend of mine whom i think would be interested too...but darn...she herself is in USA right now so dang...can't share with her this piece of INTERESTING ad.... i would love to give it a try...seems fun. ANYONE ATTENDED SUMMER CAMPS?IS IT FUN? or who have been camp counselor b4? I mite also be trained in the things i am interested in doing...hehehehe...if i get that job..its means i'll be going next yr for 2 mths i think...if i were to go..mayb i could get to see Inca too!!!!hmm Inca, u are staying in USA right?hahaha if i could save up enough $$$ i mite fly over to Canada too!!!!for short visit to find frosty over there!!!hahahha getting all hyped up.
I'll surely call the company up and check things out. Hmmm these days thou i haven't really found a stable job yet, i seemed to be busy with my own things. My aunt asked if i wanna volunteer helping out at a local horse riding for the disabled, so i'm following her down one of these days. I think anything to do with children is a great exposure to my future working with children.
i'm still excited abt the camp counselor thingie...hehehehehe oh and Christmas would be coming up real soon so i am in the mood for DIY gifts for my relatives, cousins, friends etc etc....but HOWEVER...i still haven't make up my mind wat i'll be doing. Mayb i shld just start with the list of who will i be giving presents out to. I'm also gonna start my driving lessons soon too..gonna take my 2nd driving test early Dec...hope i will pass this time...
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::: Saturday, October 16, 2004 @ 03:23 p.m. :::
hahaha mi ahn hae yo inca *bows* wanted to blog but got nothing to talk abt :( Ya mayb talk abt the concert that shinhwa is being involved. They sang arnd 6 songs...i remebered there's like T.O.P, First Love, Perfect Man, Hey Come'on, Brand New and i think some other songs...some are full length, some are short ones...or are they all full length??hahaha didn't really listen cos i was snapping photos and vids of them...BUT all turned out blur...and i hate my phototaking skills...now i think i didn't have the flash on, my cuz told me mayb its due to the flash...WTH!!!i put it on auto and i tot the flash would come by itself!!!dang...i didn't realize it...hahah too engross..cos i was singing away and shouting at the same time :P They talk mostly in english...hyesung oppa talked the most in english. I got clip of them talking but the image resolution sux...if u guys wants, i could post my blurry pics and vid...cos i went arnd looking at other forums and realize they have WAY BETTER pics than i do...so i'm embarrass to post the pics...
well one thing i felt happy is that i get to see them in person. I was not THAT far away...so at least i am happy abt that but time flies fast and i feel as if they never came...hahah...at least i saw junjin oppa!!!hahaha...kk and of cos minwooie...that is for frosty and shu...i tried my best to take gd pics of minwooie but can't...sorrie gurls...i really tried.I tot is due to my shaky hands but i tried to stop it from shaking BUT the photos still turn out sucky...
next tues going for an interview. Being a facilitator to the children or sth. Bringing them arnd that particular place and introducing them the things in that place kinda job. Sounds fun but i have to start work at 7.30am...--! but i end work at 12pm...okie...anyway its only for the holidays.
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::: Sunday, October 3, 2004 @ 09:57 p.m. :::
AAAAAAAAARRRRRRRRRGGGGGGGGGHHHHHHH CONGRAT ME!!!CONGRAT ME!!!I CAME OUT WITH A NEW LAYOUT!!!!yes yes...i finally moved my lazy fingers to do a new layout...nothing fanciful abt this but okie...hahahah...
Spent yesterday meddling the layout thingie...and the internet doesn't seem to be refreshing my bloggie...and i kept looking at the old blog till i got fed up with it and i stopped meddling with it...till this morning every thing turns out okie.
As everyone can see...the main picture seems kinda big...but i am lazy to fix it up, so i'll make do with tat...hahaha...
i'll blog soon again cos i know frosty is watching my back...hahaha...as arnold says "I'LL BE BACK!!!" adious...
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::: Monday, September 27, 2004 @ 12:23 a.m. :::
okie...i think i deserver a slap on the head by everyone...hahahaha cos i didn't blog...for like a mth plus? hmmm i just finish my studies...i am totally cleared...just waiting for one final report and my certificate.
Thks for the care everyone showed to my on my last entry. I recovered more or less i think. From this friend, i learn to really show care and concern to anyone who's being troubled...and those who ain't, i still show them that i care. I don't wanna have regrets...to those out there...I LOVE YA!!!!*muahz*
Just wanna tell ya all...I FAILED MY DRIVING!!!!gonna try it again on dec...just wish me luck again.hahahah...oh ya...b4 i forget...the last conversation i had with frosty, i told her that....SHINHWA IS COMING!!!!they are coming for a mini concert that consist of some other singers from all over the world. Kangta actually shld be coming also but at the last min, they changed it to LENA PARK...haiz...else I COULD FEAST MY EYES ON BOTH!!!kk...i'll try to take pics of minwoo baby for dear frosty...cos i realize we ain't suppose to bring cameras...damn....i'm gonna try gurl :) i can't believe man!!!!its hardly any gasoos come over here...SHINHWA BABY!!!!kk...i'm not hardcore shinhwa fan..i even started out hating them BUT okie..i love them but not as much as choti...cos can u imagine??i just own 1 shinhwa concert vcd...and thats ALL!!!!hahaha...and i still can't get andy and dongwan right...hahahah...okie i'm bad...mi ahn hae yo...
talking abt korean, i am starting to get my arse off to learn korean by MYSELF!!!i just got 2 copy of korean learning bk from my friend...gotta start to force myself to really read up on the bks, else my korean is still at the same level after so many years...thats REALLY REALLY VERY BAD!!!!
oh...ya know...i'm really thinking of CHANGING MY LAYOUT!!!! gosh...this layout has been here for ages i think...thats so bad...i'll start to think of one...i actually did one out but i dun really like the feel of it...i mite redo it :X
oh...and i really have to get serious and find a job...else everyone will be telling me that i am wasting my time instead of finding a job...
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